VNV Nation - Distant (Rubicon II) lyrics

The paths that I once tread have all but gone Only embers now smoulder where bridges once burned I feel alive and yet I fear what may happen now I know I can't return And I hear me say again, "Oh, let me not return." Damn the illusions of redemption and the hopes that held me here I will oppose all that would befall me, with this rage inside of me I'll defy what I would become The solitude and anger that do battle inside me Will always guide me to the answers that I know I may not see They are the bonds that hold me tighter, they are the chains that weigh on me One day I know they will be gone Can I start again and erase this pain By casting doubts into the waters, Asking judgement of the sea? Though fortune may guide to the fools I have no wish to be free Until I am gone.