Vitiate - Awe-Tistic ft. Dan Bull lyrics

[Introduction: Vitiate] Y'know as soon as I tell that I have autism they're like; Woah really? I had no Idea man Yeah, I know you don't It's not an easy thing To, be my own world all the time To have to live inside my own box Not being able to really communicate with other people But, this is, the best way I can try to describe it Through the only thing I'm good at right? Me and Dan Let's do it [Verse 1: Vitiate] I never asked for the symptoms of Aspergers syndrome It attacks where it hits home and acts worse when Vits grown Give vocal indication that I hate social situations I never found someone like me who was close to inspiration Im cold in operation, can't hold a conversation Or untold observations that stole my concentration Im at the feeble border between creepy awkward And a deeper art form whenever people offered Combined attacks, I can't keep eye contact And I combat life with wannabe edgy and violent tracks Simple mimicry to mask I show little empathy Presently indifferent to everything from love to methamphetamines Compa**ion died while murder makes me laugh and smile Pa**ers-by will make me keep my head down for ma**ive miles Everything needs to be put back in order and placement Can barely stand alone since I totally lack coordination [Chorus: Dan Bull] Me, I'm living with autism And all the world's a stage for which I never auditioned Me, I'm living with autism My brain plays a syncopated change of pace to your rhythm I'm living with autism And these bars formed the cells of my mental prison Until I saw I didn't need to be forgiven For being me, and living with autism [Verse 2: Vitiate] This is why I rap abusive and keep actin stupid Cause its how I keep away in the back reclusive Say I condone murder to stop all my co-workers From hanging out or making our relationship go further I wanna end all these morbid thought proportions And make another artist paint a portrait of the autist People plan and specialize to try and understand and recognize But then they find they're unprepared and question why Can't give a voice to the voiceless or make a life story pointless Just say that I am disappointed and always devoid of enjoyment No one witnesses my intricate mental differences No bridges between myself and the Olympians or limitless Marked as heartless but Im a victim Caustic as a pale autist who has been given the harshest criticism There's no need to show sympathy or pity me Just don't have it be a mystery the day that Im gone instantly [Chorus: Dan Bull] Me, I'm living with autism And all the world's a stage for which I never auditioned Me, I'm living with autism My brain plays a syncopated change of pace to your rhythm I'm living with autism And these bars formed the cells of my mental prison Until I saw I didn't need to be forgiven For being me, and living with autism [Verse 3: Dan Bull] I've said it before, and I'm ready to tell it again In my lowest moments, I'm my own best friend I wanna connect with the people around me, the people that doubt me But being in a loud scene with a crowd screaming around me Is totally overwhelming, to the point where I feel I'm drowning The sea and the fear surround me, the cheers are bringing me down deep But now the crowning glory is how the crowd applaud me Applause resounding all around the sound is out of the ordinary Kind of like my personality, til I learned it wasn't a tragedy These mannerisms and Danielisms are things that make me actually me An atom within the matter that's spanning the seas and planets and galaxys And that isn't an allegory, we're all composed of energy and it means The planet's a can of beings, with infinite different varities So why are me and V seen as a difficult bit of society Nah f** that, - we're the facets in the diamond While you're on the mountain shouting, you can't see the fact we're climbing [Chorus: Dan Bull] Me, I'm living with autism And all the world's a stage for which I never auditioned Me, I'm living with autism My brain plays a syncopated change of pace to your rhythm I'm living with autism And these bars formed the cells of my mental prison Until I saw I didn't need to be forgiven For being me, and living with autism [Outro: Vitiate] Autism isn't just about, complete disability Sometimes it's about being unable to connect