Vex - Clarity (So Alone) lyrics

(Hook) And I've been going through hell Caught in a vicious spell Blinded by the lights, crossed course, stumbled and fell I'm feeling so alon I think I'm 'bout to explode System overload (Verse 1) These days I'm feelin' reckless Caught under the pressure of catchin' up with these stresses Can't jumble enough words all together to invent a f**in' set list So I aim't been doin' shows, ain't made no checks up on this checklist So let's investigate the mess that Vex is in Swallowin' alcohol, feelin' the burn as it caresses his throat No hope, tryin' to find a proper exit It's messin' me, gettin' me when I feel at my best, it's Dragging me down, I think I need an intervention Everything's collecting, and did I mention? I fell into it with a temptress Let it get the best of me, best believe when I say it was ecstasy, but I wasn't aware of all the stress I'd bring Let it build up, let it fill up, let it get to festering I've been struggling, asking myself what's next then I thought I lost a lot, but did I learn my lesson? (Hook) (Verse 2) This isn't a cry for help and this isn't me begging This is me venting over something that I let slip It's where my head dips into negative messes Of how I wrecked it, stretched around, it left me breathless I showed more emotion than I should show A colder shoulder thrown at me over and over Thought I could have froze Thought we would have rose above the commotion But it would grow older Hold up, this boulder's folding down til I fold up I lost control of emotion, something like bipolar I gave it everything I had and still she tried and stole it This boulder fell next to me, uncessfully I tried to roll it Away, but I put myself right in its path And I fell down and got rolled over This damage is the result of my actions A lack of planning A fragile man who fell by his own hand A dramatic mad-at-the-world man An addict to his ex-girlfriend Traumatic and he can't stand it It's frantic inside this whirlwind (Hook) (Verse 3) The first two verses that you heard Were written a couple of months ago And I thought by now, I thought by now I'd have something that I could show But I ain't left no room No room left for the love to grow, so What do I do now? I just don't f**in' know And where am I at now? I guess I'm stuck below But you can bet your a** I left room for trouble to grow And I'm cooped up now inside of this bubble will hold Me as I struggle to go through this Usin' music as something therapeutic I'm feeling useless, verbally abusive As this noose slips around my neck When I wake up in the middle of the night in my bed Drenched in a cold sweat, soaked in regret Feeling like I'm just so f**in' lost and thoughtless Like I don't know what caused this Like I can't get my mind off of you And what can I say? I did it all for you I had nothing but love to f**in' offer you (Hook)