Various Artists - Bother lyrics

Wish I was too dead to cry? My self-affliction fades Stones to throw at my Creator Masochists to which I cater You don't need to bother I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on I won't let go till it bleeds Wish I was too dead to care? If indeed, I cared at all Never had a voice to protest So you fed me sh** to digest I wish I had a reason, my flaws are open season For this I gave up trying, one good turn deserves my dying You don't need to bother I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on I won't let go till it bleeds Wish I'd died instead of lived? A zombie hides my face Shell, forgotten with its memories Diaries left with cryptic entries And you don't need to bother I don't need to be (I don't need to be) I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on I won't let go till it bleeds You don't need to bother I don't need to be, yeah (I don't need to be) I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on (once I hold on) I'll never live down my deceit