Undertow - k** lyrics

Why do I starve myself from what I need and feed on what makes me bleed. Everything so right so I must make it wrong. Everyone's insight but I push you away. k** this pain. Why do I walk away from all that I work for. Why do I open up just to close the door. You throw me a line and I choke myself. You've given me everything but I still cry for help. k** this pain