Tristan - I'm Bad lyrics

[Verse 1] All I do is sin, sin, sin no matter what Dirty thoughts go through my mind. I can never get enough I'm lusting for women. I'm lusting for money I know that it's sinning, but that's how I've been living I'm sick and tired dealing with all of this evil inside of me I feel like moving to the mountains and living on my own peacefully But I can't do that and I'm so sick of all of this adversity I feel like I'm ready to die and rot in hell for eternity I know I'm not going to hell, but it feels like that's where I belong A good Christian does what's right, but I can only do wrong Yeah, I can only do wrong. I'm sinning twenty-four seven I just don't fit in with all the good people going to heaven I feel like I could punch this wall hard enough to break my wrist Because I'm so mad at myself. As a matter of fact, I'm pissed You want to hear it like it is? Well, listen up and I'll tell you what's what Everybody only annoys me. I just want to scream "Shut up!" But the problem isn't other people. The problem is me The problem is I've got too much emotion built up inside of me I've got one too many problems and too much anxiety Which is the reason my music tends to be full of intensity [Hook] I want to be good. I know that I should I want to be good. I wish that I could I want to be good. I'll try to be good I want to be good, but no matter what, I can't I don't want to be bad. It's too bad that I can't Quit being bad. I wish that I could Stop being bad and start being good I know that I should, but no matter what, I can't [Verse 2] Jesus loves me. This I know, for the Bible tells me so I feel like he really does love me. It seems impossible though How a god who created the earth could care about someone so low Really, how could he? I honestly don't know If Jesus can truly love me, that must be his greatest miracle It's hard enough for me to love myself when I'm so sinful And it's hard for me to love others too, because I'm so hateful When people are good to me, I know that I should be thankful But it seems so much more natural for me to be ungrateful I'm trying to be a rapper, but I'd be a terrible role model Then again, how many celebrities are decent role models? They sure aren't angels. I'd fit right in with those devils Parents are going to hate me, because I've lost my marbles I lost my brains in a nose bleed. They came out of my nostrils Parents don't have to tell their kids not to be like me I'll tell them myself, because even I don't want to be like me And you don't have to judge me either, I'm already doing that for you And go ahead and hate on me too. I hate myself too I'm trying to change, but changing for the better is a lot harder Than giving up and just letting yourself get into whatever [Hook] [Verse 3] What's the difference between the good people and the bad people out there? Good people try to be good, but bad people don't care Good people are actually no better than the bad people at heart Bad people just aren't as good at being good as the good people are And since they aren't as good at being good, a lot of people judge and hate But what exactly does it mean to be good in the first place? Being good is really just being good at hiding being bad You just need to learn to fake a smile when you're sad or mad A smile is all you need if you want to look like a good person Along with some good deeds and doing your best to hide your sin Inside, we're all bad, even though most won't admit it And we all want to be good, though some only want it a little bit Bad people want to be good, but the worst of them have given up completely They've realized that truly being good is really an impossibility So they give up, k** their conscience, and let themselves go bad If they truly could be good, they probably would, but they can't In my opinion, being good isn't about what you do or don't do It's about whether or not you can put the interests of others before you I'd say a good man isn't someone who always does everything right You should just try being humble and being nice and polite [Hook]