Transit Studio - Coming Clean lyrics

Haven't had a solid week in years Last june I swore to myself That i'd be long gone and out of here But I didn't make the grade So I put a ruler to my wrist Sister made it hurt like hell Left me a scar the size of texas The truth is I've lost touch with who I am So touching her and them reminds me I could get away with murder in this city Sometimes I wonder what keeps me here Cause i've never been rewarded Sometimes I wonder what keeps us alive Maybe its this jersey heart that was made and taught never to die You're parents disowned me at hospital doors And all of your friends.... Well someday ill get the best of them Well I haven't been rewarded for being hated and walked all over So I sin for thirty and pray for twenty It's not trouble if you don't get caught And it's the only way that keeps me forgiving Somehow this is me coming clean Please don't hate me because I'm real and you're not I'm just over living dirty