Transit Gloria - Somber Smiles lyrics

It's tough keeping eyes open when I'm tired Or my head up when my spirits are down Or how the darkest part of day is the morning When it's only you and ghosts in your town Doctor, quick, I think that she is leaving See how fast the light is fading from eyes Or how my memories might be receding But if you go I will follow you I want you to know I'm not any stronger I've lingered much longer than ever I meant The smiles have returned, though infrequent and somber I think I accept it, I think I've grown Wrists slit like I'm down and out and looking for some answers Looking for a quick fix, ready or not Now the trees grow upside down from the sky These are f**ed up times I've fallen for you I've been gunned down in a drunk-drive drive by So fly, so high, my wings are burning down to the bone When the light black ash threatens all that we know Run for cover, if you go, I will follow for you If you go, I will follow you I want you to know I'm not any stronger I can't change the past, but I would if I could If that makes me a coward, I'd still say it's worth it Cus oh, how the thoughts of our hearts were great I realize it scared you, for that I am sorry I can't change the past, but I don't think I would It's the mortar that binds me, it fuels, it defines me I finally accept it, I'm sure I've grown So I want you to know that I am now stronger The future looks bright, and I'm doing just fine But this stain of regret is resisting erasers I still think the thoughts of these hearts were great