I'm heartsick and well rehearsed Highly decorated with a badge that reads "It could be worse" So prideful I choose to live in disguise With a levee set for my heavy eyes I apologize for the grief When you'd refuse to eat I didn't know just what to say While watching you wither away I'm homesick and living in the past Seemingly unfazed and strong if anyone asks I'm keeping up appereances with white lies With a levee set for my heavy eyes I apologize for the grief When you'd talk about belief I didn't know just what to say While watching you wither away It was time this whole time We can't undo or rewind Just a simple conversation about nothing much at all Couldn't keep me in the room, I just kept walking down the hall But now I understand just what a fool I'd been No matter what the context, I won't have that time again (and I live with that) I took inventory of what I took for granted And I ended up with more than I imagined I've kept it bottled up and to myself in the cellar Kept for my everchanging mental health I took inventory of what I took for granted And I ended up with more than I imagined I've kept it bottled up and to myself in the cellar Kept for my everchanging mental health