You died at 69 with a body full of cancer I asked your god how could you but never heard an answer No onse saw it coming, the diagnosis of stage four The bravest woman I know that survived it once before Last week I crashed my car and I walked away unscathed Maybe that was you asking me to keep my faith You cried at the thought of never seeing me again If there was an afterlife, I want you to go to heaven I never felt so selfish, it's not what I prefer I always kept it honest, especially for her She gave me her best, she swore I was her heart I couldn't worship the god that let her fall apart I'm not sure what I believe Well I think that's understood But I know she's looking out for me The way she said she would The way she said she would The way she said she would