Tone Jonez - Lift My Eyes (feat. Eric McAllister & Chris Bernstorf) lyrics

[Produced by Tone Jonez & Ben Somerville] [Chorus: Eric McAllister] On my own I am blind No more games, no more lies All my fear, all my fight Left me here in blackest night Suddenly a shift of view Cause all along only You Could take these pieces of my life Finally, I lift my eyes [Verse 1: Deflect] Everybody got a dark past Everybody got a mind full of regrets that just last Got a dark corner of your soul That you never open up to anybody, door stay closed When he left with you with nothin' and you gave him everything Lost your identity in all your love yearning Now he gone and you feel you startin' from scratch But his promises he didn't keep cover you like a rash When you turned to p**nography for satisfaction But your mind was tainted by lustful distraction Your eyes were turned inward, your pleasure is first now Sex controls your mind, you go out on the prowl Trapped in desires and you feel alone Forgot about the Holy One sittin' on the throne Man my own solutions just feel so much better Cause i'm thirstin' for power and I want the credit I wanna be king, wanna be my own ruler I don't need nobody else, ridin' solo like Derulo Laced up with nike kicks, man I'ma just do it But every time i did it, man i always blew it So tired of lonely hedonistic cycles The longer i live, i feel like the less i know Don't know how much longer i can live with no purpose Cause livin' for myself always feels so worthless [Chorus: Eric McAllister] On my own I am blind No more games, no more lies All my fear, all my fight Left me here in blackest night Suddenly a shift of view Cuz all along only You Could take these pieces of my life Finally, I lift my eyes [Verse 2: Deflect] I am so prone to look inward All those lessons i never learned All the hearts that i've broken, mistakes that i've made Relationships left behind burning in flames The friendships i've lost and the people i've hated I always just run from problems i've created All the things that i keep hidden from people The stories i never tell under the steeple Running with secret regrets just in circles I'm falling and failing and screaming for mercy “God why don't you help me? Why am i alone?” The tears i've shed searching above for His throne Why don't you come meet me the way I want you to? I'm king remember? I tell you what to do This is my life and i wanna control it Why would i want you when you tell me me you own it Hypocrisy rules me, my mind it just rused me I want a solution but I wanna choose the Easy path of moral relativism But somethin' inside me never stops yearnin' for Him I need someone to cover my past And give me closure with a hope that lasts [Spoken Word Interlude 1: Chris Bernstorf] Brokenness, has its own palette Two hundred and fifty six colors of abuse or more My bones used to groan My body an empty building begging to be filled Hollow and weeping like a casket I somehow sensed it was a temple, but unsure of what to worship I drugged in idol after idol But nothing filled me Nothing soothed the walls' calling choirs No matter what goal, what silver I painted over them they rebelled Implacable Layer after layer of lust lacking and cracking Falling and fading, the ground suffocating beneath their weight No matter the shade, no matter the contents My body echoed, still lifeless as a casket Refusing my broken soul, refusing to be my home [Bridge: Deflect] Take a breath, and calm your soul Release your grip and give control The higher purpose you yearn for I'll give it to you and much more Take all my pain and nail it to that tree Doubts, insecurities, you take lovingly I need you in my life, turn my eyes from me Take all my regrets and set me free Nailed to a cross, what utter beauty His d**h brought me life, i give you everything Nothing is holding me back anymore My new life is ahead with so much in store (I give you life and so much more) [Spoken Word Interlude 2: Chris Bernstorf] When you found me, and entered in my body The coffin packed with lusts and broken dreams, but somehow still empty The lifeless building flooded with light Every idol dissolved, you poured into every room Seeped into every broken place, every crack in my ritual hiding space Saturated the walls, so joy to my bones And breathed the breath I never felt into my lungs, into my soul You burst out the windows and doors Your light showering onto everything and everyone around me My broken building of a body becoming the beacon The temple that was meant to be Alive and free [Outro: Deflect] I guess the question I would leave you with is Who and what are you living for? And what is your purpose in life? Night is gonna fall, if it hasn't already fallen on you The question is: will you rise up or will you fall with it?