Tom Robinson - Fool To Myself lyrics

There were times in my life I avoided the voice of my reason When respect for myself Was the search for a hole in the wall When I hated my face and Evaded my gaze in the mirror Been a fool to myself but I ain't gonna do it no more I believed all the crap that Fanatics were happy to parrot And their world of uncomfortable Certainties made me secure I conformed and performed All their torturous mental contortions Been a fool to myself but I ain't gonna do it no more Living each day in a Permanent haze of frustration Too eager to please and Too scared to say boo to a hen Lying awake going over Each humiliation I've been kicking myself Again and again and again I've tried to be nice all the time And control my emotions I've pretended I wanna make love When I'm ready for war And I've planned every move And manoeuvre in human relations Been a fool to myself but I ain't gonna do it no more I'm sick to the gills of appeasing the creeps who abuse me All the sorrys, I've muttered to others for nothing at all Of accepting the verdict of vermin who lie and accuse me Been a fool to myself but I ain't gonna do it no more Been a fool to myself but I ain't gonna do it no more