Toehider - There's A Ghost In The Lake lyrics

(talking to myself – ) Everyone there thinks they knows the truth Everyone dismisses your excuse They saw the van, they saw your gra**-stained knees The couple living west up on the hill Heard the splash when night was gripped with still And saw the moon was bouncing in the pool You saw them watching, and you know you did You saw them see no matter where you hid You saw them like you saw her hollow eyes… But keep your own eyes open, toe to steel Press on forward, focus, steer the wheel Don't confuse the truth with what they saw (speaking out loud to myself -) If Jess were here, then she'd know what to do She'd tell me to be calm and tell the truth But she told me not to tell the truth just this one time… And why am I so anxious and forlorn? Why am I? I've done nothing wrong! I've only done as she had always wishedI feel her weight still, heavy in my arms Just like she used to sleep with peace and calm And why's that moonlit mist still in my eyes? What's the truth, and what's reflected blame? And how do I exude it from my brain? The blood and water as she left my aching hands… PULL THIS VAN OVER/DRINK TILL I'M SOBER SHUTTING MY MIND UP/CLOSING THE COVER I CAN STILL SMELL HER/WISH I COULD TELL HER I LOVED HER BEFORE /LIFE WAS su*kED FROM HER IF I CAME CLEAN HER PARENTS WOULD KILL ME BEST IF THEY THOUGHT THAT SHE'D RAN OFF WITH ME FOCUS CONCENTRATE, PUSH ON AS DAYBREAK TAKES OVER NIGHT AND TAKES OVER MEMORY… I'm in over my head, I'm slipping much further awake My best friend is dead, and now there's a ghost in the lake (me -) “I'll damp the cloth, and fill the water cup You need to drink, and dear, you're burning up Your skin is raw, and blistering and white Babe, you've not the strength just to get dressed Dear, you need to see a specialist I know you don't believe, but babe, it's time…” (Jess -) They have no idea what's best for me The body creates its own remedy Their cures are all just masks, a waste of time… It makes no difference, nothing's any good I can hear them now “we did all that we could” I'd rather die like this than with a poisoned mind But I don't want to pa** rotting, boxed, confined Throw me where my shell can be purified Give me away like I was never here Throw me out and let Mother do as she (pleases) Please, if you love me, Take my dead body Hand it to nature (so) I can rest quietly Leave this stupid town, like we always said Don't tell our families, don't taint their memories I'm in over my head, I'm slipping much further awake My best friend is dead, and now there's a ghost in the lake