Thinking Plague - Possessed lyrics

In the dark waiting with loathing and dread she is coming alerted by my self-pity she is a child frozen in her pain I can never be free of her and never she of me sometimes she comes when I'm trying to know love she torments me and tells me I am not worthy she is almost here I can't bear to be used by her to take revenge on all who come too near for fear that they might make me whole and her fade away In my youth she and I were one through ridicule and hate I was torn from myself She is here Childhood's wretched slave can never be led to freedom Is hatred's hungry child asleep within all our reason?