Thiago - Dedication lyrics

Trying to see where I should go from here Should I be doing this for kicks or start my own career? Am I far away? Am I close or near To where I want to be? Someone tell me if the coast is clear Will I survive swimming or will I die drowning? What do you do when your vision's blurred and your mind's clouded? This a nice outlet, but it's all I have So if I lose, there ain't a plan to be falling back On, no alternative, straight ahead, no swerving sh** Lost in dreams, crossing fingers, wonder what the verdict is I'm standing first in line, but whose turn is it? Not mine, so why do I even work if this Wind never blows my way? Holding weight, my shoulder blades Are caving in, the rage within is blazing in like solar rays But this was all I needed, and this was all I wanted One chance, just one chance, and now I got it And I'm not gonna waste this Any chance I see, I'll get up and f**ing take it Any way for me to make it Any stops, limits, walls, believe that I will break them And I know to keep my head up Tomorrow always follows and dark weather will let up There isn't no "instead of" After falling down, those willing to get up got Dedication And these thoughts keep me up at night I am sick of "what if's" and "wonder why's" I'm stuck in the past, losing f**ing time The words I never said realign themselves in lullabies I'm fighting one to five against my regrets 1. Love, 2. Hate, 3. Rejects 4. Not retaliating when I bleed red 5. Still no f**ing CD yet No respect since day one May of '07, first step in, got made fun Got spit on and knocked down and beat up My team was just my pen and my paper and me as leader So chica, please comprende if I'm going loco Cus this the first time in years I'm not feeling solo And this was all I needed, and this was all I wanted One chance, just one chance, and now I got it