starting becomes an adherent obstacle when all objections are raised beforehand, in the head knowing what one can and will say against whatever is being expressed because it circles that way, in every single direction. friends are the police I'm the police we define everything here and push out what is unacceptable sometimes only based on (its all the same-- its inside) fear and you get so used t pushing (we don't see eye to eye- we don't) things away (realize) that a good idea becomes (we were wrong) indistinguishable from a bad one (look inside, you can see it) so we remain unchanged, never able to grow this fear driving our controlled sides we're pushing everything away that could potentially save us, we don't know what we're k**ing we just keep wheeling down the same old rut policing each other, socializing, stuck here like the children, like the f**ing kids we are..