The Holy Karon - I Am Who? lyrics

My parents told me they don't really like me Teachers prophesied in years Ill be dead or in Jail But I don't give a f** about what anybody says in this world & Them b**hes can burn in hell Born a f**in rebel, Taught by the f**in devil I love doing evil, I'm just a fallen angel Corrupted by predicaments that I was living in, so this is why I live in motherf**ing sin I guess I changed when I seen my Grandmother get k**ed (echo) Or my best friends died Seeing them at peace in them caskets they were inside, something I desired got me on the brink of f**ing suicide. (echo) Am I alive? (echo) Or Am I dead? (echo) I swear I'm just existing. (echo) Rowing my ship filled with sh** Down this stream just wishing I awake from this dream. (echo) But I swear this is all a f**ing nightmare A never ending warfare Where we all are looking for meaning to life & my meaning to life is getting out of this hell here By any motherf**ing means Which mean RIP to any souls that comes in between There blood will be spilled on my own horror scene Morphine can't ease the pain from this machine I can barely breath All I do is bleed Seems like I'm only affliction free When I'm popping pills, drinking lean or smoking weed I'm a depressed kid With monsters & demons inside So you might find random b**hes with semen in there eyes Cause I look for love in all the wrong f**ing places People only care if your pretty or dead I'm just Demented Demon, whose barely even breathing With a f**ed face & n***a Hair so nobody cares But who cares, if they care They will never ever understand What's it like to be a unloved black man With God & Satan Constantly screaming in your ears telling you how to live f**ing years I just hate life I wish I had knife To wrong my f**ing rights Which mean taking my f**in life My f**in life