The Holdup - Still the same lyrics

If I told you I was tryin to change, would it make up for all the stupid things I've done? Maybe you'd forgive me but there'd still be pain when you consider That it's possible I'm not the one So much time you spent here believin that maybe I was perfect and I gave you a reason To think what you think you see isn't what you're seein If you leave then I won't blame you for leavin Just know that I promise this was never my plan. If ya never forgive me you should understand That I'm sorry for being the way that I am Guess I never say it cause I've done what I can Well, I cannot change I think I proved that to us both by now I have tried to be a better person, but I don't know how I never wanted to be this way. I'm tryin to do what I can to change I wish I could tell you all the things I'm doin. I know what to say to you but I'm too afraid I wish I could tell you I'm a bad guy. I wish I could tell you to stay away I know what's wrong with me I'm trying to fix it but somehow I keep making the same mistakes I'm trying to change, but I'm still the same I'm tryin to change, but somehow I'm still the same Leave it alone. How could I leave it alone? When mistake after mistake is all that I've ever known Too many drinks and there's just too many hoes. Too many crazy nights after too many shows I'm not gonna stand here and keep asking for second chances. I know better than you. I don't deserve them Don't waste your time standin there asking me for honest answers. I'm not positive that you've ever heard them I'm sick of wakin up drunk. What am I doin? I can' help but think this life is goin to end me. It doesn't seem to help to think about what I'm losing Never thought sober kids would be the ones that I envy You don't need me then why you still here? Well I wonder but that's your call I keep tellin myself I don't need you but I know that ain't true at all I never wanted to be this way. I'm tryin to do what I can to change I wish I could tell you all the things I'm doin. I know what to say to you but I'm too afraid I wish I could tell you I'm a bad guy. I wish I could tell you to stay away I know what's wrong with me I'm trying to fix it but somehow I keep making the same mistakes I'm trying to change, but I'm still the same I'm tryin to change, but somehow I'm still the same I'm trying to change, but I'm still the same I'm tryin to change, but somehow I'm still the same I'm trying to change, but I'm still the same I'm tryin to change, but somehow I'm still the same