The Gospel Youth - H.L.B. lyrics

I've been struggling with sleep. I find it hard to close my eyes Pretending it was all a dream Set sail with your ghost. I don't believe that you were ever here The coldest place I've ever been But I found out what it's like to be with someone who took away my dark And have it all sussed out and concrete in the empty space inside my head But now it's all messed up. The bu*terflies are now a pain up in my chest If this is what it's like to live then I wish I was dead I lost my faith some time ago I may as well be stranded out at sea where the only thing left to do is sink But I swear to god I've never loved like this before So how typical it was of me to be all in when you cut and run