The Funeral Portrait - The Optimist lyrics

Oh how I've longed for silence (You were calling for evening) You won't believe the year I've has (It falls) behind these pulsing eyelids (Here it is) I saw the truth, the ever-haunting truth Dear one (I will never forgive myself No one could have shown me how It's almost over now) I am opening myself for you My bones ache from any vibration (I will never forgive myself) No one else could show me how It's almost over now) The lies I've kept to vindicate Relapse to self destruction To save myself I imitate a man of pure devotion Dissect my palms to simulate a fragment of emotion Primary urge to mutilate I'm moving in slow motion Dear one (I will never forgive myself No one could have shown me how It's almost over now) I am opening myself for you My bones ache (I will never forgive myself) No one else could show me how It's almost over now) From any vibration Dear one (I will never forgive myself No one could have shown me how It's almost over now) I am opening myself for you Dear one (I will never forgive myself No one could have shown me how It's almost over now) I am opening myself for you Dear one (I will never forgive myself No one could have shown me how It's almost over now) I am opening myself for you I will never forgive myself No one could have shown me how It's almost over now