The Fi3nd - Dear Diary lyrics

[Verse 1: Jinzo] Dear diary, I been thinking a lot, homicidal thoughts Suicidal tendency's everything gets the best of me Here I sit again, just reminiscing bout the past Trying to cleanse the bad that's trapped inside of me Schizophrenic acts, but the facts remains That I'm insane, it's all in my brain I remind myself it's not there, but I feel it, and I see it And there's no f**ing higher power but me, all I need is me I prey to myself, I talk to myself Jinzo's the man with the plan, I grab the razor from my shelf I cut, and I slice I think about my enemies, I'll destroy them at any price Surprise, I'm f**ing bleeding out again To hell with it though I goddamn like it, the blood's fun to play with I have a different look on life Dear Diary, I'm not crazy, I just have an open mind [Hook: Jinzo] There is no god, there's only me My insanity consumes me, my sanity's detached I crawl from the shadows, will all the pain stop Clawing at the fiery ground, thinking outside the box Trials, and tribulations, why the f** am I damned If I'm going down I'm pulling you with me, and that's just how I am Another day, I bow my head down in shame Dear diary, why did it have to be this way [Verse 2: The Fi3nd] Staring down at my desk at pages drenched in blood I used to write for fun now I vent what I suffer from A combination of my past present situation Got me stressing feeling out of range b**h no reception Disconnected, so alone and afraid That my daughter will grow up to hate me someday Anyway I can't take or fathom the shame Of what I've become but I've caused this pain I'm insane to think I could let it all go To throw it away and f**ing lose control I leave these entries in a book though they scribbled in blood To let my baby girl know how much I love Her, she my world, the light in my life Many nights I cry thinking bout leaving her behind Steady stressing second guessing Whether I should die, than be alive and hold her back in life [Hook 2x: Jinzo] There is no god, there's only me My insanity consumes me, my sanity's detached I crawl from the shadows, will all the pain stop Clawing at the fiery ground, thinking outside the box Trials, and tribulations, why the f** am I damned If I'm going down I'm pulling you with me, and that's just how I am Another day, I bow my head down in shame Dear diary, why did it have to be this way