The Faded Youth - Nameless lyrics

This is a story Start out happy Ends up boring Outside it's pouring Inside it's storming Gory movies playing On the t.v. it's driving me insane I think about the way the I'll die And if you'll remember my name My name My name Tell you that I'll change Do more of the same Every day feeling a little bit More deranged Disengaged from society High off of sobriety We've come too far We've come too far For you to try to lie to me I won't fall apart quietly I won't leave till your smiling I'm dialing your phone number Wake you from your slumber Spit out all my guts Prolly watch you as you leave me Love is tough And hate is easy I'm cliche and this is cheesy I will laugh as you will tease me I'm having a hard time breathing You and the reefer have an odd effect Kiss you goodbye When i get home send you a text Misery loves company And iron sharpens iron I can't help but feel a failure Giving into my desires This is me If you don't like it you can leave I promise I will guide you Long as you listen to me And if I come up short I take it out on myself I take it out on my health I'm self destructive I don't listen to nothin My flow comes with a current You get caught up in it I'm not of this world I was brought up in it Taught to finish What I start Use my mind Ignore my heart You're my lights When life is dark Just wait until the spring baby Just like you & me Everything'll be blossoming baby Alright I'mma go out on a wing And say you like it when I sing to you Make time for each other But we both have other things to do I like you so I can't help but make fun of And be mean to you .... Money's not enough It still takes love to make a man of me Right now hit this tree but maybe someday start a family? Who am I kidding I don't even know I ain't gonna rush it Let's just take it slow I don't need to know And I don't wanna Plenty fish in the sea Most of them pirannahs I'm just being honest Because I could never lie to you I'm inside your mind When I am physically inside of you But just in case that's not enough You make me blush when I least expect it All my angers misdirected I don't really mean it I'm just busy fighting demons Constant brink of extinction Not to mention I'm tired and exhausted But I still ain't lost the Spark that started Me to want to be an artist I'm here, I'll be here until the day they take me Label me a threat cuz of the way I am behaving Got a storm inside me raging Waiting to become uncaged Tryna to keep up with the pace I hear the sound of closing gates Behind me With the people that hate me Trying to find me This is a nightmare This is a night where Nothings going right I'm tired of life And I just might do something stupid Have you ever felt this useless? Everytime I take a break I let down my guard It's so easy forming habits Why is quitting so damn hard Like sh**, this isn't good for me So why do I keep doin it? And using it And feeling guilty I swear this isn't the real me