The Epilogues - Hunting Season lyrics

I won't lie It seems I stood Disappointment's catching up with me this time I'll vow, and I'll succeed I'm too ashamed to look into my fathers eyes I , what have I become 'Cause everything I ever wanted Inside of me is proving real tonight I can feel it now Yet all the things I think I want All the very things I pushed my friends aside I need them now, I need them now And I'm afraid it's all for nothing Oh why do I It's hard to see An advantage to see and everything's just fine Yet I see inside of me It's like I'm seeing wasn't careful the first time 'Cause everything I ever wanted Inside of me is proving real tonight I can feel it now Yet all the things I think I want All the very things I pushed my friends aside I need them now, I need them now And I'm afraid it's all for nothing All I see Is let down faces Looking back at me 'Cause everything I ever wanted All the lies I ever told And promises and hard time breaking card But I feel them now I'm afraid it's all for nothing