Am I laying late awake again Is the snow down on the lawn again? All these worries falling on my head While I was staring at the dishes piled Just waiting for the spring to thaw my smile It was frozen staring down It's going to be a long winter again Well I've been touched by the rush of the river one time Your breath on my skin gave a thrill when I thought life was fine But now there's news on the TV I'm wide awake and my brother's not home He's learning war in fatigues And my arms are expected to know loving Well I've felt the cold of a friendship unfold Where once were pleats, comfort recedes into a violet glare I'll try not care I will not be bold I will not be bold if you stay I will not be bold I will not be bold if you stay I will recede into a violet glare I'll try not to stare