never caught in the searchlights of anybody else's life that's why you stay, that's why I won't say: "you don't fit in elsewhere anyway babe" it's a big stretch into nothingness tracing for something else something that doesn't hurt or stain your heart never mentioned in kind words but oh, so often heard not even dwarfed by our helplessness in a garbage filled apartment where all your time got spent and the smell from decades away couldn't help you around the bend it's a big stretch into nothingness not slowed down by our littleness