woke up laughing in the middle of the night and it scared me to feel so completely shut out and always next to alright and always next to daylight so please let me remember it wrong 'cause it's been so long since someone held me as if to save me from myself and everybody else and all the words that went from mouth to mouth did they ever strike beauty stored in apartments filled with old doubts can you reach me, the loving parts of me can you please let me remember it wrong 'cause the truth is too strong it's something I never told anyone but the one I couldn't hold