The Away Days - Messiah lyrics

It took a while to find my head Halfway round' the world The thousand miles through my bed I've thought I'd be happy out there But i was wrong about that and so many other things I beloved count of my mistakes And I'm so scared Of this man that i become I said myself to failure And everything i've ever done I'm the king of my own desaster I'm my king of [?] I'm the god of my own Holy rapture I'm a leader messiah I'm giving up on looking for the one She's not out there So I spilled my heart out in the sun I'll never be happy out there Cause I don't care About anyone except myself I just want to stay at home And I'm so scared Of this man that i become I said myself to failure And everything i've ever done I'm the king of my own desaster I'm my king of [?] I'm the god of my own Holy rapture I'm a leader messiah And the time I spent Doing nothing is f**ing ridiculous I'm lazy and drunk and sad So put your arms around me And I'll show you The worst night that you ever had I'm the king of my own desaster I'm my king of [?] I'm the god of my own Holy rapture I'm a leader messiah Can you feel my desire? Can you be my messiah?