[Intro] Have you ever met somebody, and it's like, no matter what happens, their ALWAYS HAPPY? And like, they condemn you if you're not? Like it's religion, like you gotta pretend everything is okay and they damn you to hell if you ever feel bad? Like the world is "happy happy joy joy" and if you're not, take a pill, because there is definitely something wrong with you [Hook] (Barclay James Harvest Sample) You can make the day seem right And make the darkness bright That's what you do [Verse 1] My life is worthless, trying to figure out my purpose/ Black clouds overhead and this stress ball isn't working I've been to several churches, couldn't make it through the service/ Leave like "the next time, I hope it's in hearses" What did I do to deserve this? I'm living through curses/ I'm surrounded by clowns like I'm living in a circus Nightmares reoccurring, I've never been this nervous/ I'm afraid of failure, like, "I can't get sh** perfect!" I want someone that listen to me pour my heart out/ But even if I find her, will I ever let my guard down? My family's got their own sh**, don't wanna be a burden/ But for once I just wish they could see that I'm hurting Why is it my foster family's there when my real family isn't/ And Moe don't ever think I don't love you, we're in the same position And Austin has no idea just how much we really miss him/ His daddy ignores our calls, he's a f**in piece of sh**, but... [Hook] (Barclay James Harvest Sample) You can make the day seem right And make the darkness bright That's what you do [Verse 2] My life is just a sample of different struggles being sampled/ I got a handful of problems, each one is too much to handle Without a candle lit, could you walk down my dark path? The only glimpse of light in my life is a spark blast (Tony be a smart a**), but I hide my pain with humor/ Got the tears tattooed, you laugh, but what you think I'm doing? Alcohol abusing, you always see me wasted/ I pa** out in the gutter, I'm Poe's reincarnation! If I didn't believe in Satan, and there wasn't a hell/ I would've wrote this song and been done k**ed myself I been to jail, been homeless, and I done dropped out of high school/ You listen to Tony Mike, but you don't hear Anthony Michael I'm a king that's suicidal, I'll be more than glad to prove it/ Beg my girlfriends to shoot me, 'cuz I ain't got the balls to do it, ughh Alcohol influenced, i make cirrhosis look alright/ And joy's a fictional character in my non-fiction book of life. But... [Hook] (Barclay James Harvest Sample) You can make the day seem right And make the darkness bright That's what you do [Verse 3] Your life is in the heavens, looking down on my presence/ Use my hell as a lesson, like you overcame MY stresses! One hand will count my blessings. This is God's way to test me./ Liqour's an antidepressant if you already have depression No one's invited to my wedding or gonna know when I have kids/ And i dont want yall at my funeral, trying to speak on how I lived 'Cuz none of y'all know sh*t, you only know what I tell ya/ Bet when my names brought up, I go down as a failure Everything can be perfect t on your side of the fence/ As for me, it's a littler greener, cuz I be smoking that sh** I feel like me and my sis, won't ever be the same again/ And i miss Arin Rae, she used to be my best friend If you can't love me at my worst, at my best, I doubt it./ I could die right now, when would y'all hear about it? But go on "happy-go-lucky", I'll be more than happy for ya./ Because if i wasn't, you'd say, "you're depressed, i got nothing for ya" [Hook] (Barclay James Harvest Sample) You can make the day seem right And make the darkness bright That's what you do