Telling Beatz - Outro-Memories lyrics

[Verse 1] I'm tired of feeling tired So I let it flow When I'm writing That's the only time I think I grow Have I outgrown The silly struggles That slowed me down Still looking in that Broken mirror With my broken smile Still in the struggle of Breaking leaches And k**ing demons I've k**ed myself in that process So you can catch me clinging To the memories That I made When I was alive I've tried to look to the future But can't see with these eyes Instead I'm living in the present Stuck between The promised land And where nothing is destined Stuck between the drama And the karma And the lessons That I've been trying to learn For the past 12 sessions What was lost? And what was gained? I gained a little knowledge But accumulated pain I gained a little mileage But I think I've cracked the frame And I lost a couple friends That probably could have remained If curiosity and lust Had never occupied my brain If the magnitude of trust Had matched the magnitude of lust Then maybe It would have made a little more Sense when I bust Shots at your dome I'm gone Unwelcome signs On the door left open The gate of truth Permanently broken Re-write the truth When the gate gets opened [Hook] I can't see you in my memories I don't give a f*** what you may say about me If you ain't even a part of me (You're hard to see if) I can't see you in my memories Don't give a f*** you say about me Because I can't See you in my memories [Bridge] I can't even see you in my... I can't even see you in my... I don't even want to see you in my... I just want to see you... [Verse 2] I never stopped dreaming I'm still looking for freedom I've changed my mind bout religion Hope they don't call me heathen I stopped taking my medicine Hope that I don't stop breathing And I've been feeling The side effects of it every weekend And it ain't like I'm out on the regular I try my very hardest to runaway from the pedestal When I'm feeling self conscious I go out and buy another coat If the going gets tough Imma cover struggle with Karat Gold Venturing through the rabbit hole Searching for super sanity When I see it I grab it whole Find reality Grab a hold The Great Gatsby Of gallantry Lost his grip And then torched his soul Soul searching through a couple songs Wrote a couple raps about it Then proceeded to leave it alone Pray that the world doesn't leave me alone I try to hide And run along But I think attention may have been What I needed all along [Hook] I can't see you in my memories I don't give a f*** what you may say about me If you ain't even a part of me (You're hard to see if) I can't see you in my memories Don't give a f*** you say about me Because I can't See you in my memories [Verse 3](Repeat 11x) My eyes don't cry no more [Hook](Repeat 2x) I can't see you in my memories I don't give a f*** what you may say about me If you ain't even a part of me (You're hard to see if) I can't see you in my memories Don't give a f*** you say about me Because I can't See you in my memories