Tarik - Are You Proud Of Me lyrics

[Hook] Are you proud of me? Are you proud of me? No, no, no... Should of known [Verse 1] This one of those beats that I get lost in And talk about how this life is exhausting Or how I'm afraid of falling Distance myself so I haven't been calling often Part of me keeps telling myself it's just precaution But it's just the way of life until loved ones end up in coffins I learned this lesson, I learned this lesson That's why my mind is racing, I'm stuck here watching the wall spin It's hard to go hard when my heart is soft and Your life was taken and mine was spared What would it be like if you was still here and I was there? How would I act if God was to tell me my time is near? Only guarantee in life is d**h so I'm kind of scared, to be honest with you I ain't making the best decisions Not every move I'm making is made with the best intentions And yeah I'm far from perfect but I'm tired of overusing that excuse Who am I to complain when most of my time is misused? So I wonder [Hook] [Verse 2] Crazy thing about stars is they don't shine until they die Crazy how people go before you get to say goodbye Crazy how you could look at a person right in their eyes And not even know that next week you be asking yourself why As you stand over a casket, questioning what's real Cause you can't believe what just happened, this all just seemed way too drastic I mean, I know it's life and everything ain't always gucci But dawg, this feel like something that's straight up out of a movie, forreal And I'm sick of wishing and hoping I feel like as of late I'm just going through all the motions How selfish of me trying to be more than a waste of life This for my uncle locked up in the pen and facing life I miss you and wish that you could be here to see this Even if it doesn't touch the ears and reach us Just know, no matter what I'm gonna be great because I have to If I wrote that letter I was supposed to I would've asked you [Hook] Some days I look in the mirror and God I ask myself I'm still learning Some days I look at the sky, can't help but wonder Gotta make ya proud