System Syn - Absence lyrics

It was only a dream I swear It did not happen as they tell you It was just a fantasy I was not living in that moment If what I feel is not what I feel How can I ever know what's real Was I stillborn years ago And is this absence all I'll know I had thought that I could be A part of something more than me But now I finally understand This wasn't meant to be I must suffer this fate Let the chemicals dictate The face that I show to the crowd The only life that I'm allowed To live is a lie To live is to lie Suffocating in the absence of myself Heaven help me Heaven help me If you hear me You know I must suffer this fate Let the chemicals dictate The face that I show to the crowd The only life that I'm allowed To live in this fate Let the chemicals dictate The face that I show to the crowd The only life that I'm allowed To live is a lie To live is to lie