SwuM. - Sword & Shield lyrics

[Verse 1: Irahnik] Pen and paper hand in hand, can't make any scripture Hands are way too numb, yet I blame it on the mixtures Looking back at pictures of us, and all the fun times sh**, all that has fissured to dust, we're like alumni But that's the past participle, I may not be visible Definite unforgivable, in a literal sense And all these syllables left, my unconscious all unguarded Disregard it, that's retarded, gotta see how to move on from it Feel like a narcissist, not smoking on no arsenic I'm not a blazin arsonist, I get em from a pharmacist I know I lost again, but-it won't get to my head this time All this music and this paper got me feeling high Ink splattered all across the lined canvas Ain't no smoking, ain't no toking, still I try to manage I was an acid addict, but now I'm just myself It's me, and my sword and shield, and I don't need no help [Verse 2: Irahnik] sh**, I'm just tryna write again, but damn but I really can't So I'mma just write some words as if I really can My life done hit the fan, man I need some tryptophan I'm just tryna be a better man, eyes are red again But I'm just stayin up too late, no other BS reason Screw the heathens that be rolling the potent, asking for me to Come and chill with them at this time of night Friggin 2 AM and they be getting sky high And I'm just chilling in my bed, wonder why I'm so insane In the membrane, I'm slain, feeling so mundane I'm in pain, I always manage hiding it properly Like the broccoli you hide in your room, behind the pottery If I don't need that sh** to clear my mind, then why do you? I know that I'm a fool, but rather, I'd just face the truth I was never sober, now I'm just myself It's me, and my sword and shield, and I don't need no help