Swirl - S E L F H A T E (prod. Swirl) lyrics

[ Verse 1: S God ] Tryna cope with the pain Contemplate life as I kneel in the rain I am a f** up that goes without saying Not good enough I'm a burden, a bane I don't deserve life, why am I here? Things would be better if I disapeared I wouldn't cause hurt No one gets burnt I'm good for nothing, I have zero worth Don't belong on earth f** is my purpose? Always just f** up My life is just worthless The ones who claim love Will just grow to hate me Family, friends Even the beautiful princess that dates me sh** I fear it'll happen 'Cause I'm not enough There exists others that have better stuff Better looks, more money Can show a better time Can take her more places and provide a better life But f** I hope that I'm wrong 'cause I want her forever Got nothing in life if we're not together My life got better 26th of November I love her too much to lose her But it doen't make sense why she wants me, I'm a loser [ Verse 2: S God ] Immature pesamist who cannot get a grip Thinks of himself and making that money flip Is not appreciative, would'nt listen even if it is the truth being preached to him Offensive as sht Never cares what he says Would joke about something as f**ed up as d**h Would joke about suicide everyday even though his mom told him she was on that pathway Unempathetic, he's f**ing pathetic Lazy as sh**, he's unenergetic Thinks that he's owed sh**, just for existing Only wants benifits, won't do the lifting This person is f**ing dispicable see The f**ed up part is that this person is me [ Outro: S God ] sh** Maybe I am better off dead So many times that thought has, you know, been in my head 'Cause I always f** everything up even though I try my best My best isn't enough I'll never be anything I'm just gonna be a dissapointment for the rest of my life, to everyone f**