Swingin' Utters - To Return Now lyrics

Standing up to the world and all you see, now Telling yourself you've gone away for good, now But there's not enough time And there's no really good reason To return now Feeling horrid and happy seems the same, now A crazed grin and furrowed brow's the norm, now But you know there's a difference A subtle inhibition That you try to block out of Your fragile mind now Giving all that you've got to think good thoughts, now And you find you've given all of it to her, now But there's not enough time And there's no really good reason To return now I've heard 'em say "everybody plays the fool", now But I'll never be anybody's dupe, no 'cause there's not enough time And always a good reason To return now I've felt pain, I've been anesthetized By sharper tongues and brighter eyes Weak at the knees and petrified I've bowed down before and f**ked my pride The last time I went away Was only when I was out of my mind But this time it's for real And I can't get myself to get up to return now (Koski)