Such A Mess - Landmarks lyrics

Is it a lie to say I'm happy with the way things all turned out? and looking back I'm proud of where we've been I had that same dream (where I know how the puzzle piece fits) But I just cant reach it anymore It's getting harder to keep my head out of water accept that I have grown I've been chasing pavements nightly searching for some clarity and a place to call my home Its sink or swim with concrete at my feet (head underwater) I wonder when the end and I will meet Every night that I cannot sleep it gets harder and harder to chase my dreams (When they're f**ing chasing me) It's getting harder to keep my head out of water accept that I have grown I've been chasing pavements nightly searching for some clarity and a place to call my home I know I'm over my head, I know I'll never relax If every step I take is just 2 steps back Time is wasted away spent swallowed in fear Will I be stuck in my head or will I disappear? It's getting harder to keep my head out of water accept that I have grown I've been chasing pavements nightly searching for some clarity and a place to call my home