[Intro: Slaine talking] Wake up Wake up motherf**er (Strobe light effect everything movin' slow) [Verse One: Slaine] I woke up afternoon with my jeans and my jacket on Empty bottles everywhere, Jameson and Jack is gone Ashes on the futon, roaches in the ashtray Cocaine residue stickin' to a gla** plate Eyes on fire, head bumpin' like a ba** kick Last night's a blur let's ensure I was wasted But what I do last night? Where was I last night? A kid from Miami round 5 on a fast flight Hopped in a cab to the lab laid a rhyme Met my peoples at the bars for some drinks, eight or nine I was blunted when I came, puffin' marijuana blends Caught up with some corner friends They f**ed me out my mind, I mean they must've no doubt Cause I'm on the couch with a night I know nothin' about I'm a villain in the night when I'm spillin' my drinks Until I piece it back together and I fill in the blanks [Scratched Hook x2] (I'm sick demented, I came to represent it) (Drugs got my brains fried makin' it hard to think) (Strobe light effect everything movin' slow) (I keep livin' like this I might lose it) [Verse Two: Slaine] My anxiety was awful, kept me feelin' hostile I stopped pacin', my heart racin', a flarin' nostril I remember a girl who was wearin' some Aeropostale A lost soul, I think she had me caught in a la**o All day a s**er for love, I'm such an a**hole Drink on and d** kick in, it's only natural Mixed up like Donnie Soprano and Tony Brasco Dick s**in', crazy a** hoes, it ain't a ha**le This is how I was thinkin' 'bout the b**hes and the drinkin' I figured the blinds open has us blinkin' on a Lincoln My man was walkin' toward my stoop my f**in' heart sinkin' Bangin' on my door, something smelled fishy I stopped drinkin' Pulled me aside his eyes are clouded with tears he can't see He said, "Allison is dead." Oh my God it can't be The pain written on his face he didn't have to talk it My address was on a script bottle in her pocket [Scratched Hook x2] [Verse Three: Slaine] Yes I'm a man who's been filled with malice and shame Between dreams and reality I balance and hang Dare we say that I'm pissin' away my talents and thangs And what could I have done to save Allison James? ? know me, I was sniffin' coke till the nose bleed She was eatin' Xany's, shootin' dope until she O.D'd I took her to the hospital, left her for the doctor And the nurses probably looked after her, watchin' her I like to make the details up as I go along And think I did the right thing even though I know I'm wrong But I don't know what all this does, push me to the wall I had another in my cell the smell of p**y on my balls (She died) I didn't even know who she was Maybe she was just a who*e who'd only blow me for d** Maybe I was just in love on that day in September sh** Maybe it's a fantasy, maybe I remember it [Scratched Hook x2]