Shai Hulud - Hardly (original demo) lyrics

I am a memory I never existed And now I am nothing Her name, a single word Melts me, takes me to the ground Only alive, can't she see I'm destroyed by yesterdays And do I gain? I could only Dream For chance to side with me Inquire, ingest, implode Let this not be the disa**emblance of me Another night with arms still empty I'm destroyed And do I gain? Or just fall