Sevin - Surrender lyrics

Oh yes Lord I surrender Though it hurts sometimes Oh yes I surrender Ohhhh [Verse 1: Sevin] Yo My poppa was a preacher but his poppa was absentee He did the best he could To keep his son from living fast and free Religious rules and Christian schools The other children laughed at me Plus we never had much green so I never did dress fashionably Everybody wore the same ol' smile But it was just a mask to me I saw through the hypocrisy When the pastor made a pa** at me That ba*tard had a cla** of us He kept asking us to do nasty things To the point I have the baddest dreams of… Savage things attacking me We moved away but you could say The tragedy had a lasting reach Blocked out any memory Still can't stand to hear no pastor preach By now I'm about eleven And I've learned life comes with hazards B Sometimes I just break out in tears A dark cloud seems to pa** through me My best friend was my blood brother And at thirteen he died tragically And after he pa**ed in that car crash I wished that that was me I had a heart but life ripped that apart and gave me apathy I felt God did not look after me All I have for Him is blasphemy [Chorus: Sevin] The rain falls on us all The good and the bad Same thing that'll make you laugh One day well it's gone make you sad And now I see I gotta walk by faith and never walk by sight no I don't understand Your ways But I know you're always right And I surrender I surrender I surrender Although it hurts sometimes [Verse 2: Sevin] Yeah Aye I went from good kid to a hood kid Seemed like the change came overnight Life cloaked him with a heart that's frozen Rollin' on a stolen bike Smoking like a chimney With a semi sitting in that holster tight And every other word was blood No love for who we ‘posed to fight Went from praying prayers like “Lord I love You I'll keep you close, aight?” To “I don't know if You even there Just help me not get smoked tonight” So enticed by the thought of being loved I'd pay the coldest price I done sat inside a cell for n***as Who has never even thrown the kite Rebellin' against the God I hate I blamed Him for my loaded life What made it worse I played with curses Even though I know what's right I used to ask church folk why life's so hard But I got no advice Or they'd just relay a bunch of clichés that don't suffice Depressed and half psychotic Narcotics are my chosen vice Consumed with idols Suicidal by eighteen I tried more than twice Married to this selfish pride I seen the devil throw the rice And every day I dwell inside this hell till he tells me roll the dice [Chorus: Sevin] I said the rain falls on us all Said the good and the bad Same thing that'll make you laugh Today well ya know it'll make you sad And now I see I gotta walk by faith and not by sight I don't understand Your ways and oh Lord But I know you're always right And I surrender I surrender I surrender Although it hurts sometimes [Verse 3: Sevin] Aye So bitter and so broken (I was..uh huh) my soul's soaking in misery With no hope for the future though Cuz I'm so focused on history (none) Till one day someone cared enough To share just what You did for me (what?) I can quickly see how differently you act From the Christians I'm witnessing You lived this thing called love While all of us are just so nitpicky (uh huh) You are righteousness You gave Your life for us… literally The thought that You're the one I hated sickens me (yeah!) It's a trip to me how quickly we fall into iniquity (I'm sorry!) Even though I acted wickedly (what?) You still chose to sit with me (why?) I'm the worst one on the court Lord But yet You still keep picking me (You do!) And now it comes so vividly Clear that every test and every trial Was predestined and the outcome was Your victory Thank you {​Chorus: Sevin] I said the rain fall yes it does On the good and the bad oh Lord Same thing that'll make us laugh One day is gonna make us sad And now I see by your grace I gotta walk by faith and not by sight Yeah I know I'll never understand Your ways Lord But I know you're always right And I surrender I surrender I surrender Ohhhh yes