Sevin - Finally Home lyrics

[Verse 1: Sevin] It's been six months since I snatched up my pen to write Overwhelmed by this hell and tremendous plight I'm asking peace could you spend the night There was a time I saw clearly But I'm weary and I've dimmed the lights Stretched to my limits and I'm wishing God would end my life Still protecting my image I pretend to fight Shedding tears on divorce papers that I send my wife Back in the hood, look around ain't got a friend in sight Born feeling like the Golden child But I'm older now, war torn soul of Colin Powell I'm cold and foul and stuck with this low morale And I don't know how to cope cause I'm sober now Watching everything I worked for the last few years Become everything that's hurtful, alas new fears But the masks dude wears ain't no gla** you hear He drinks pain from a cup and he ain't splashed two tears [Chorus: Sevin] If I knew then what I know now Sorry but I just didn't know how To make it right I push through the pain and strife Trying to find my way home If it wears me I'd never tell you I'd promise that I would never fail you My hearts gone cold on this long hard road And I'm finally home [Verse 2: Sevin] And I'm sitting in the storm when its pouring But I like when it wets me Something about the strife that affects me heart icy as Gretzky Trying to get away from life it won't let me The ropes to tight on my neck see I'm infatuated with the cage I wouldn't like to be set free The one's who supposed to love me Rather fight than accept me Skip one skip two go right into step three On the roof with a cross hoping lighting don't deck me And blood it's sad we couldn't hold on to what we had Square woman with a gutter lad Hope that little n***a meant what he said When he wished he had another dad Cause there's going to be another lover in his mothers pad I keep my head on through the drama knowing that Life brings pain, yup domino effect Suppressing notions of emotions and my prayers show it No, I don't care for it but yo I'm prepared for it [Chorus: Sevin] [Verse 3: Sevin] And I'm back on my grind last time just God and me Flame dumping pain pumping through my artery I will never again let a woman harness me Honestly right now I feel enormous B Enough to put a pharmacy to in my palm and see If the pills that it is filled with can calm the see I trust the one from the tomb who was honorably Was resurrected and his wounds can make Thomas see I ain't sweating all this threaten in economy And I ain't caring if them terrorist is bombing me Cause all I see this ministers throne of grace And the King who sits in it with a glowing face I know the cobra waits, for me to fold and break If the load is great then he cultivates no mistakes Yes, that's how I know I get the victory Today's tribulation is just tomorrows history I'm here cause he chose me, not cause I chose him I'm knowing I owe him a lot more than moping And not being broken and opening up The very word he has spoken and soaking it up So Master can I ask ya, to forgive my blasphemy And give me strength so I can give you what you ask of me And I'm never holding back Until I get to heaven and i'm never knowing lack [Chorus: Sevin]