Seven - Happy Ending lyrics

[Intro: Tech N9ne] I don't even wanna f**ing do this song, for real But I wouldn't be real if I didn't [Verse 1: Tech N9ne] I be sittin' by myself and I be thinkin', "Momma, what have I become?" All I wanted was a family, but when I look up, you the only one Losing everything but money, everybody left and I don't even get to see my young Only happiness I get is in the studio or when I get to do another run On the road, doin' shows, get the woes, when it slows Gettin cold, getting old, but the flows, gettin' sold I've been doin' this a minute but I think I wanna end it cause I'm on a higher level when I go But the music I be doin', it be losin' em' and make it really tough for me to grow All I wanted was a family portrait, see my babies on a ranch with horses But I was f**ing devil b**hes in corsets I was livin' really good then I torched it I'm sorry Ms. Jackson, I'm speakin' for real and I never meant to make your daughter cry But I guess I'm a failure with women I'm lost and I feel like I ought to die Feel like that I'm rotting away, my life is just off in the grey How much does it cost? I will pay, to lay, and be off in a coffin today I mean off in ashes, this life ain't after it clashes, If I get blasted This is Suicide Letters all over again, I thought that I pa**ed it But I guess that I didn't, cause this one is written and there is no mending When I'm broke I'm a joke, when I croak I just hope that I won't be descending But this ain't a joke, I want you to know that Tech N9na is never pretending Alone in my bed, with a gun to my head, asking, "where is my happy ending?" Yeah [Hook: Krizz Kaliko] Tell me how it ends What about me? Where is my happy ending? What about me? Is this a life worth living? You know how it begins, but how does it end for me? Will I ever win, or does he have it in for me? Will this stop before I stop breathing? Is there light in this dark I'm seein'? [Verse 2: Tech N9ne] I put my life in this music, N9na is inside out I set my heart out for people, they know what the inside 'bout Will they keep feelin' N9na forever? This I doubt Can never cry for help, so if you listenin' this my (Shout!) I'm searching for the pa**age way to happiness But i'm worldly so I have to lay in nastiness Yes, this is Strange year, worldwide fame's near, but the game's queer Sometime I feel like I'm Rudolph the Reindeer But instead of a red nose, I stay in my red clothes And the music they said blows, is on top and the cred grows Can you resurrect a mother f**er that feel like he posses a dead soul Deteriorate to an inferior state almost equal to bread mold Now as my head goes, wish I could shed those Because all the times the N9na was shorted, what I bled froze So now that I'm cold blooded, and hella sick is what the med shows The tread slows, and don't even think you reviving a dead rose Yeah [Hook] [Verse 3: Tech N9ne] I'm on the verge of insanity, but I'm competent I'm breakin' so I pick this one to vent The reason I look away when you talk to me my brain is producin' evilness I'm drownin' in 151 and Rumple Minze That's how I feel I sit in the mirror with this gun and practice how to k** But I know damn well that the people like me really wanna know how to chill This life is about a check, about a number, about a bill Think about all the love I lost because my quest is about a mill I feel like you're stupid, don't talk to me I'm crackin' up And I don't mean laughter, I'm full of bitterness and its backing up And I live with angels, but lately demons been shackin' up Tug of war with my spirit, see the blood I'm hacking up? I love my kids and my fans inside I sob harder Cause you pay the price for my life and its right like Bob Barker And I won't pretend that it's okay I'm no facade starter So I guess my only happy ending's in a ma**age parlor Yeah [Hook]