Sentinel - The Terrible Lie (Hope) lyrics

The heart won't cease a beat Prevailing despite my disloyalty Perseverance of purgatory A mind now rotting, distorted with disease Burdened with despair Creating a serene illusion Losing the glimpse of the fatal delusion Fate I have tempted and with knives I have danced Have I paid my debt, was the full price exacted? Am I being misguided by the velvet glove? Am I the bringer of rapture, the bearer of the darkest days? The pressure ever mounting, I can feel my spirit break Will I leave a legacy of woe? I cried the swans' song though in error I sang The purest notes of its melody reverberate Echoing all of my shameful sins Mesmerising and haunting Echoing all of its whisperings The phantoms of uncertainty haunt my visions edge Slowly gaining substance, then fading into smoke In the mist I see my bravery reflected I find myself lost in the workings of life's complex faith The reality rift distorted by the sleeping shift These sands constantly fluctuating in a sway too foul The heart and mind waltz discordantly Mimicking structure but failing at grace Tranquillity is but a flicker of a memory In the forms of family I entrench myself Trusting that through love's misleading lies There will be some sanity My wish is to end the desperate dance of dissonance Though the present skies seem bright and clear It’s for the futures bitter promise that I now fear I no longer believe in the terrible lie that we forever call "Hope"