Senses Fail - DB Cooper lyrics

I'm leaving home Above the clouds with silver wings I feel my guts slowly drop as engines sing My teeth are clenched 'Cause gravity is defied I'm at a place where I feel dead inside I know I can't take back what I never lent 'Cause all my plans, crushed in the end Desperate As I slip the screws out from the seat I need a way to breathe The wind Tears the fuselage from the tail piece I hope it sets me free With my nose pressed up to the window pane I watch the lights as now they dance in rain I breathe out to make a canvas for your name I can't relax my shoulders carry the blame I know I can't take back what I never lent 'Cause all my plans, crushed in the end Desperate As I slip the screws out from the seat I need a way to breathe The wind Tears the fuselage from the tail piece I hope it sets me free I look below and weigh the rip And now the bag is up, I'll be dropping weight I'm diseased just like my father He says it comes from my mother I hope my son does not catch it Look at what I have to do to survive I hurt myself just to feel alive I don't know if I'll make it back home 'Cause I don't know if there's no hope left there Everyone's looking for someway I am looking for the one way out I've been wasting my time Standing in line And this is what life is all about Desperate As I slip the screws out from the seat I need a way to breathe The wind Tears the fuselage from the tail piece I hope it sets me free