Semi - Heaven Knows lyrics

[CAKTUZ] I said, I wish my cousin Trev was still alive To see me become all of the things we never imagined we ever could I see the look in his mamas eyes All the d** she can stomach Just trying believe in something good No matter how much we talk She still believe its her fault/ A carrier for the affliction that carried u off Tragic what you can't bring yourself to face/ loosing something you can't replace This is my guide to recognizing saints Afraid when those pics fade I'll be fighting my mind/ not to forget the shade of your eyes Because success is a dinner 4 schmucks Got'em Forking over the doe the numbers is up - Trust Made such a f**ing mess Dragging up these feelings I hate funerals so I'm dressed but not De-cent Cut the life support like Clooney Now all the grammy nights Toasting this lifestyle will be your de-scendant Beat a dent In it now U know Why High Point like hell but always feel home Only heaven knows [HOOK] [EVIL TWIN] I'll give you back the bank rolls Ill give you back my soul To Send d**h way,way from this bedside Lord don't take no mo' Ill give you back the big homes Ill give you all I own Because I can't let go of loved ones And only heaven knows [CAKTUZ] Last year, My sister Quint Lost the love of her life unexpected My heart sink everytime a smiles too hard to managed When Me and Von used to always bag the same broads Still f** me up thinking what its like dying alone Gina baby father rather k** her/ than let her go In this little town that'll swallow you whole O-bituaries where her modeling pictures would be This is for real life colored girls But No Whoopi Fuse lost his sister to cancer We ain't spoke in a year Guess he just trying to find closure For all this I should shed tears whenever I write sh** But Lately I been smoking way too much nice sh** The nightmares starting to keep me up for nights again My new lady tell me the next morning so scared That I was gonna die N my sleep Because whoever I was fighting look like a Fight to the d**h But them demons hands ain't strong enough yet To catch me before I get it all hand over fist I'm in a different place now Finally Feels good Shame some of my closest friends felt they couldn't come Erie feeling when that doe peals Whoah! Now It's meetings at strip clubs just to close deals So give me mine Give me mine man I'm just trying to bring my city with me goddamn So blow me off fast babydoll I'm on my come up This game like- racing to the top of the Towers before it all collapse Pastor told me these questions I have Too sinful to think of Who the f** can I ask The futures odd But I ain't throwed Even if The Creator give you a life already owed- But only heaven knows [HOOK] [EVIL TWIN] I'll give you back the bank rolls Ill give you back my soul To Send d**h way,way from this bedside Lord don't take no mo' Ill give you back the big homes Ill give you all I own Because I can't let go of loved ones And only heaven knows