Self-Provoked - Rap it up lyrics

[Verse 1: Reverie] IT'S MARCH 23RD & THAT MEANS IT'S BEEN 5 DAYS SINCE I LAST GAVE INTO THE ADDICTION IT'S A PROBLEM THAT I FACE & I WISH I COULD SAY THAT THIS WAS FICTION, BUT CONFLICTION I BE FACING, HEART IS RACING, GET IMPATIENT, SO SICK & TIRED OF THIS SLAVE sh*t- POPPIN ALL MY PROFIT. SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE TO STOP IT & CANT NO FEELING TOP IT REMEMBER THE LAST TIME ? YOU SWORE IT WAS “THE LAST TIME” SAID THAT A FEW TIME LAST YEAR. YOU'RE GONNA END UP “FLAT LINE” THAT SPINE IS LOOKING KINDA SLENDER. DON'T TRY TO DEFEND (HER) YOU'VE BEEN SOBER FOR A WHILE NOW, b*tch, YOU MUST NOT REMEMBER HOW MUCH YOU COMPLAINED, HOW MUCH YOU RESTRAINED HOW DEPRESSED, & STRESSED & VEXED YOU BECAME YOU EVEN STARTED LYING TO YOUR FRIENDS, COVERING UP THE HABITS WITH EXCUSES BUILT A FENCE, LOST DEFENSE, LOST YOURSELF LET THE “X” TAKE OVER. WHAT'S NEXT ? YOU GONNA GO BACK TO “ALL NIGHTERS?” LOSE YOUR JOB & RESPECT ? YOU GOTTA BE CHECKED SO I'M ASKING YOU TO REMEMBER THOSE DAYS WHEN YOU COULDN'T GO TO SLEEP & COULDN'T GET OUT OF THE MAZE IN A DAZE, IN A DEPTH, VERY DANGEROUS TO STEP BACK INTO THE SAME PREDICAMENT LAST TIME YOU WERE CRYING, SAYING YOU'RE “SICK OF THIS.” NOW YOU'RE THINKING OF THIZZING. sh*t WHAT THE fu*k IS WRONG WITH YOU ? THIS sh*t DOES NOT BELONG IN YOU I EVEN WROTE THIS SONG FOR YOU, TO HELP YOU TO BE STRONG SO FU, JUST PUT THE PILLS BACK IN THE BAGGY I'M NOT ASKING, I'M DEMANDING (x2) YOU DON'T REALLY WANNA DO THIS. JUST STOP & THINK ABOUT IT TOMORROW YOU'RE GONNA BE SORRY DON'T RELAPSE, YOU'LL COLLAPSE & THEN ASK HOW THIS CRACKED JUST LET IT PASS DON'T DISAPPOINT ME LIKE THAT (REVERIE) YOU DON'T REALLY WANNA DO THIS. JUST STOP & THINK ABOUT IT TOMORROW YOU'RE GONNA BE SORRY DON'T RELAPSE, YOU'LL COLLAPSE & THEN ASK HOW THIS CRACKED JUST LET IT PASS DON'T DISAPPOINT ME LIKE THAT