Sebadoh - State of Mine lyrics

They've got the calves of champions They greet the warmest way They are the dads, the main ones They've got some money saved (yea, I'm sorry but I don't) Another kind of cla**room Another shade of fear Another door you're shoved through Until you conquer your fear (And I wonder if I won't) To let the children go To feel themselves to hurt and grow It's the hardest thing i I've done And I haven't even done it yet Thought I was wise, averted my eyes Avoided the light, went head down thru it But I was wrong I've gotta be strong And hold my head up high Failure is a state of mine Back in Ma**achusetts In my familiar role Afraid to make decisions But had to test my soul The girl wanted to live here And I follow my love Came to California Enough was never enough (Yea, I know, I know, I know)