Scruffpuppie - Stay awake lyrics

{Verse 1} Speed for breakfast and I spin Weak and careless is all I've ever been Drowning in a lake of sin Mother tells me time and time again Selfish intake for my brain Trying to feel sane again {Chorus} Self indulgence and fake romance I'm longing for some change I'm being honest I just want my thoughts to be blocked out from the pouring rain Self indulgence and fake romance I'm longing for some change I'm being honest I just want my thoughts to be blocked out from the pouring rain {Verse 2} Can't show emotions to people who care And dared to ask me why, why I am always so high? I'm ready to die Cross the river stix but no goodbye I jump inside and decompose Destroy my soul But maybe one more line of coke to wake me up Destroy my gut With drugs I take to stay awake Words can't help and I'm to blame {Chorus} Self indulgence and fake romance Longing for some change I'm being honest I just want my thoughts to be blocked out from the pouring rain Self indulgence and fake romance I'm longing for some change I'm being honest I just want my thoughts to be blocked out from the pouring rain {Verse 3} So much pain All for worthless gain In a field of grass and hay Crying softly as I lay Vision's blurry as I stare I don't want you all to care I don't want you all to care I don't want you all to care I don't want you all to care I don't want you all to care {Outro} Just stay awake Just stay awake To fall asleep Inside my {?} I won't stick I never rest my head on my pillow and faint Never rest my head on my pillow and faint I wanna be {?} {?}