Scan The Sky - The Bell Jar lyrics

Where are you? I'm losing sight in myself All these lights are reflecting Going through pyramids, Distorting all colors now They're tricking me with their shadows, They're tricking me with their shadows. I always saw this coming But refused to take notice That my solitude is a prescribed drug That feeds my addiction It makes the shadows, resemble exacatly what I'm missing It's not what I want, but It's what I need And it's always the same thing. It's been two years since the end And I can't feel anything at all now It's like a faulting nervous system I touch but can't feel at all They're morphing and changing I can't help to feel your speaking to me Are you speaking to me? They're morphing and changing They're more distinct and I can Swear it's your shadow Speak to me, Speak to me I can't feel at all. These thoughts, are the echo of a voice I should hear But they dance in the headlights I can hear your voice searching for something, I'm searching for something myself Cause I'm lost, God I'm so lost My eyes are backwards and my mind is dark As the rain that fell that night Behind black shades, In the form of tears above your gravestone All my fears hit me in that instant As the blank faces around reflected myself like a mirror showing every drought-like crack, Cause her body was taken away And that same day I parted my own Now I can't find the spark to this life, No I can't find a reason to live No reason, I can't find meaning in anything I can't find reason in anyone I can't find meaning, I can't find reason The bell jar's falling on me. Dear hope, Can you hear me? Dear hope, Can you hear me? You me me in my sorrow and redeemed all I had left Until the sea separated everything like the sunsets in our heads But the cancer in your chest refused the blood to reach your heart And not a single day goes by I don't completely fall apart I'm alone Black thoughts, my mind was plagued By the only light I knew, Spilling out of me in so many colors I never had a chance To calculate the rate of my sanity failing me day by day So hope I call you one last time To give me a sign or the end is mine Breathe in slowly I'm right here