Sam Fender - Angel In Lothian lyrics

[Verse 1] When an angel fell somewhere in Lothian I was only a child but I trust my eyes She [?] cabinet before me Like I didn’t see that Said “Kid, don’t [?]” With a space station rattling above my head I shot the day I shot the day Back then the other door was always open I come and go, back and forth, everytime I need I’m needing you more now than ever As I’m feeling weak And I’m clawing that door every bad night But somehow it’s barred from the other side I claw till my skin comes apart Until I feel something [Verse 2] Now I remembеr that pain in my mother Being helpless and reckless and far too young My brother was spiralling down He said “Kid, it’s not me, it’s this town” [?] I no longer have solitude behind that door And I know drugs that can hold it You gotta hold it yourself There was an angel fell somewhere in Lothian She could’ve fixed all the problems that I cannot fix But one day I might have kids myself And hope that I don’t fu*k them up myself, hey