Saint Sinner (a.k.a. Saintfed) - This is my life lyrics

[INTRO: SAINTFED] Look, lots of garbage stuck in my head I just wanna to get rid all of it Here we go... [VERSE 1: SAINTFED] I guess that no more sad in my apartment all i've said You can believe or not, but all this bullsh** i had! Now my life's goin' on, and gettin' better than it ever been But i don't know what will happen in 10 years, i will see I also keep movin' through hedges of my whole life And tryin' to hide everything behind my own life! All bad things, bad thoughts, bad news about me, but At this time all good things i'm tryin' to use and livin' In the real life, dismiss past from my mind I keep goin' ahead and see away a tunnel's light. It's a sigh Think i found a way out of this situation tonight No one can judge at this life for my deeds Only God can judge, and point me all this sh** But God... Why did you do my family members so early had gone? I don't know. Now layin' at cemetery, feedin' the worms People are stompin' that place, everywhere are crosses and tombstones! [Chorus: SAINTFED] I'm tellin' story of my life (this is my life) At this time i still got something to say I never wanted change my life, (because) This is my every day, this is my pathway [VERSE 2: SAINTFED] I tried many times make myself another personality But now i realized should to be in the reality Such like i have now, with this f**in' loyalty! I cut the heads off after drop'em in the my basement Human heads tried to cheat me - that's my testament Everyday create disasters, make scars on my destiny Yeah, i was doing bad things the day before yesterday At such moments i'm not glad, feel weak myself it's so bad! I keep it to myself and weird thoughts visit my mind Cuz i'm sick, but i'm a soldier and supposed to fight I must to pray God for my sins, cleanse my soul of tears It's duties sack i picked it up, pullin' it everywhere But voices around me whisperin' -"drop it right there" But i just need some help to take it and throw in the pit I also didn't visit the church long time ago So tomorrow i'll gо and throw off bad thoughts that i know... [Chorus: SAINTFED] I'm tellin' story of my life (this is my life) At this time i still got something to say I never wanted change my life, (because) This is my every day, this is my pathway [VERSE 3: SAINTFED] A few days ago i was wastin' time in the hospital I wanted escape from it, but this is my last fall After i go to the mirror to fight with myself I look so pitiful and weak that i'm sick of that hell! See my reflection, and i still got the same questions... I guess my life's like a circle, each day like yesterday I tried to break it, but now i know it's pathway I believe in God, in fate and all i do! But i don't know whether i'm doing, about these lines i guess too In my past i've been free and been happy so much But now i'm like in the cage, had captured single touch But i didn't surrender! cuz i know that defender Protectin' my thoughts, my views from other decisions That bringin' me troubles, that's why i block these collisions And i'm not complain for everything look so All this things i can describe a few words - this is my life! [Chorus: SAINTFED] I'm tellin' story of my life (this is my life) At this time i still got something to say I never wanted change my life, (because) This is my every day, this is my pathway