With a, gun in my face, I flashback on the lives That I managed to encounter, how we traded our vibes Split second, saw the score, this can't be how I die? I saw it clear in the back of my mind, no lie and... *These are... the things that I remembered* Calvary: How to be in private school and ghetto Cla** of 99, we had our eyes on the medal Had my mom married Geppetto, I'd still hold the control Elementary: programming our minds into a hole But learned to seek out the soul of a man, and expose it Mixed race clan, in photos, I've posed with White kids, Mexicans, Arabs, Africans Both light skins and brothers who were blacker Then, 9th grade I waxed into the mind of mobster Fed from the strains on the love from my father So I learned to be silent in my suffering like a martyr n***as bout the pie, til they realize you can bake But if we slicing up the Sqrilla, I don't care which slice you take Without vision, saw my fate was a maze I won't escape And all was fine in my mind, until I seen it That the fruit of creation is the attraction to Venus So lean in to contemplate and find the meaning in between it Ninja Turtles, Power Rangers Starburst, Skittles, Now & Laters Party Favors, Save the gold coins from Chuck E. Cheese Now grown, and run to Vegas, cuz we on a chase for paper But this Caesar's, not the playground They will rape you out your sleeves Break you to your knees, for those G's like Pesci They say the world's not cold if you keep a colder Pepsi But we're messy and selfish, for steak and shellfish Most will metaphorically, eat your face for breakfast Snatch you out that necklace, Lexus and Presidents A new order coming to the world, it's getting evident All the while, we never quit, in-spite of what we're dealing with But if we all stopped today, we k** it, right? As I proceed with these dreams of being Diddy Seems like such a waste when our economy is sh**ty When I'm low and look for pity, not an hour from my city Mr. Gordy did the same thing with Motown over 50 Years ago, and here's a flow ahead of it's development SWAMP Up! Natural growth is what I represent Pop recommended that I watch the Earth revolve Because the answers stay the same for how our problems should be solved So as I'm steady on the job, the world keeps turning Bopps are still bopping and the blunts are still burning A man like me can only be concerned with bigger pictures Meanwhile, everyday another obstacles delivered I struggle to remember all the things that he said, like "Life is like a Y, the left road will leave you dead" and "When you meet a lady, choose her brain over her bed" "You will know what they mean, pay attention how it's said" We're eye to eye: he's so serious, I'm curious What could make a father look and sound so furious He grew delirious, I grew to understand... That he'd given me the tools that I need to be a man I've tried to recover all that slipped out of my hands But sometimes, it's best to drop it and rean*lyze your plan In the quest for grands, you will lose and gain plenty Enemies and friends, you shall match and meet many Keep your eyes on HIM and HE won't lead you astray Hindsight is 20/20, learn a lesson everyday And when you fall, you pray for the strength to try again And the wisdom to know better so the next time, you will win Lots of fun in sin, until they send you the bill The charges that you must accept, and some still go on your will Generational: and hate is so, prevalent, ignore it Choose your path, don't look back, just cruise, never floor it And if you can't explore it, then it wasn't for you Just define what it is that you do, and stay true